In April, I started the Couch to 5K training program. As I write this, I’m in week 7, having missed some time due to travel, injury, and other issues. I run because I want to be in better shape. I want to lose weight, and stave off an early death from a life spent sitting. I do not run because I like it. In fact, I hate running.
I run twice a week. I use the Nike Plus app. When I rate the run I never ever ever use anything above the middle face with the flat mouth. I don’t smile. I convinced myself I do this for fresh air and so I can sleep better.
This and the “look better naked” mantra is the only reason I exercise. There is no mindfulness. There is no zen moment. There’s only a feeling that this sucks and that I’m doing this for the right reasons.